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Sept. 9, 2018

Coffee and recovery – CA member share

“Selfishness – self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.”

 

And I was certainly troubled when it came to service. Why couldn’t someone else make coffee? Why should I get off my couch twenty minutes earlier to make coffee for some snob who has been sober for ten years so he could sip it while laughing at his own jokes? The idea made me feel inferior.

 

Although I liked the people in what had recently come to be my home-group, making coffee for them is not how I imagined recovery. In fact, I had no idea how to make coffee. But according to my trusted sponsor this was a cornerstone in recovery, so reluctantly I agreed.

 

I bet the first few pots I made tasted like cat-shit. The taste didn’t seem to bother anyone, though. Instead, I did notice that contributing made me feel like a part of this friendly bunch. I also noted how my initial concerns were alleviated by the fact that as I slowly accepted service as something good, my self-image started to shift and the urge to be of service grew.

 

As this process continued and my frequent attendance at the closest meeting led me to master the groups shitty old coffee-pot quite well and I understood why this was an essential part of recovery. For the price of twenty minutes a few times a week, I had bought myself friends and I already felt a lot better about myself.

 

As I remain in recovery, service remains one of the best tools I have been given. Faith without works is dead. And service work, in all its forms, is to me the easiest way to practice what I was taught in these rooms and by our literature.

 

The act of doing something for others is to me the act of removing a part of myself that in turn can be replaced by God as I understand him.

 

Gustav E, CA member

 
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