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Aug. 22, 2018

What CA meant to me when I relapsed – CA member share

The first time I came in contact with the twelve step program of recovery was in 2011. I was 22 years old. I’d been having thoughts of doing something about my drug problem for some time, but I had no idea how to do it until this solution was presented to me. Since then there’s been many ups and downs. During my bumpy road towards recovery the people in CA have become my closest friends.


Without the CA fellowship, I don’t know how my life would have turned out. Two months ago I had been sober for 11 months but relapsed during a vacation in South East Asia. I had no defense against the first drink because I had worked the program with half measures. Quicker than ever before, I burned my life to the ground in only a couple of weeks. I was stuck in a foreign country with no ticket home, no money and nowhere or nobody to turn to, when a person from the fellowship contacted me to ask me how my holiday was going.


I told this person the truth. She didn’t hesitate one second to buy me a ticket back to Sweden. When I landed, without any belongings (had lost them all), no money and no place to stay, she and her boyfriend invited me to stay with them.


I can’t see it any other way than that God showed himself through these people. They gave me so much love when I had none for myself. They carried me when I couldn’t walk. They sat down with me to read out of the Big Book and took me to meetings. I really felt the power and love that pervades the CA fellowship. I was beaten to the ground and spiritually bankrupt, but I was welcomed back with open arms by the people in the fellowship. They helped me lift the shame off my shoulders. They had all, at some point, been where I was.


I started working the steps harder than ever before, because I know that’s where the solution is. Now, two months later I feel wonderful. The result of doing things right has come fast for me. Today, my life is the way I dreamed of. Without the CA fellowship none of that would have been possible. I’m so thankful for C.A. and for my sobriety, one day at a time though the grace of God.


I hope to see you all in Stockholm at CAWS 2019!


CA member

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